Monday, October 17
i just wish you could understand.
i don't know why it even means anything to me. i don't know why anything means anything anymore. i told myself i wouldn't let such things define me anymore, but i find that without them, i am undefined, i am nothing.
i really am nothing.
and nothing makes sense anymore.
i'm having a lovehate relationship with the piano. i play it because i don't know what else to do. and i hate the way i play. so i try not to. but i really don't know what else to do. how else to cope.
it must've been love.
10:08 pm
xoxo
